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it's willpower. right?
this madness, ability--
this holy blank void.
like glass, crystal, sighs, snow, mist.
nothingness for everything.
burn me pure, break me:
build me up just one more time.
now, (re)born perfect.
(my head aches, my stomach screams
I pay them no heed. long lost.)